This morning I had a fabulous workout at the Mashpee Koko Fit Club. No – I did not get my perfect workout, but I did lift very close to 7000 pounds for the first time. My friends were all there and it was serene and sunny in the club. After my strength workout, I moved to the mat and began my stretching and yoga moves. I have slowly been adding in the Bikram poses to this part of my workout because my body desperately craves them. I have not been to Bikram for probably two months due to working. My life has taken a sharp left turn with the addition of the new job. You may have noticed fewer posts. Right now I’m not able to live up to my goal of daily writing. I have come to terms with that – and it’s okay. Our lives have to change. Things leave and things enter and then we need a period to pause and rearrange. That’s where I am now. Work and working out have entered and Bikram and daily posting have left – but not completely. I still post. And now I’m adding more and more Bikram poses to the stretching part of my workout. My standing bow is even improving.
Today I did the courageous thing. I added camel. I debated – should I or shouldn’t I? I haven’t done a camel in two months. Can I even do it? I wasn’t worried about getting hurt because my body is totally warmed up from the cardio and strength workout, but form is another matter. I decided to do it and the most amazing thing happened. I have only done camels in the studio and when I bent over backward for three years I have stared at the knot in the paneling of the same blue wall. Imagine my surprise when I entered the back bend to see trees and a gorgeous blue sky against the orange of the Koko awning outside. It struck me. Then I got an idea. I wanted to take a pic of my view from camel. Now, I have sung Happy Birthday in camel and I have held a one and two minute camel, but has anyone ever taken a pic while they were in camel? I was determined to be the first:
Such fun! Then my friend suggested she take a pic of me doing it so you could get a better perspective: (due to the light you can barely see me in front of the window)
Okay, she took quite a few and I swear I did a one minute camel, which is pretty amazing after all these months.
Today I learned you never really lose, leave, or totally let go of things in your life. They were all put there to be a permanent block in your life map. My three years of Bikram training will always be a part of who I am and so will this blog.
And so, as another day goes by, New Year’s Resolution # 2 will be to let both of these things find their place in my new life. Gently. Without force or rules or expectations. And, for the SECOND time today, I have written. (See, it’s already working!)
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