I often think now, one year later, how much better of a place my head is in. I attributed it to the natural healing process that occurs over time. I never stopped to really think about how I’ve treated this head of mine for the last 18 months.
I’m starting a new little business and am doing a little personal development to learn about it. “Garbage in, garbage out” was the topic of the day. I must’ve heard that phrase a million times, but never applied it to myself. (Probably because it never meant anything to me, nor did I ever give it any serious consideration.)
Serious mistake. I sit here today and think that’s really what good teaching was all about – always being careful what young minds are being exposed to. Now it’s time to think about my grown-up mind. Looking back over the last year in terms of “garbage in, garbage out” sheds a whole new light on why I feel so good today.
The beginning of that journey spiraled down into a deep depression and climbing out of it depended on what I put in my head every minute of every day. Filling my head with negative thoughts about myself or others, listening to loud, angry music and sitting in a chair watching all the negativity on TV would’ve just kept that spiral going on a steady descent until I had crossed the line and had an unmanageable problem.
Thank the Almighty that I was smart enough to realize that. Instead of sitting in the chair for morning after morning of daytime TV, I went to yoga religiously – it became my job I paid to go everyday. Not only was my body being worked physically everyday, but the teachings of the practice that transfer over to life outside the studio, were being quietly rooted in my brain each morning. Writing morning pages as soon as I woke up rid my mind of anxiety. Reading a positive meditation right after that instilled thoughts to concentrate on each day. Playing a lot of Christian Contemporary on Pandora kept me close to my maker. None of this was garbage. It was all positive and good. I guess positive and good in, yielded positive and good out, so here I stand today, healthy, strong, and possessing a new, intimate relationship with God. I swear He did it all on purpose to bring me back to Him.
In any case, today I learned the value of really paying attention to the things and messages I let into my mind. I see the importance of it and only by the grace of God how it saved me. “Garbage in, garbage out” is no longer just a cliche I fling aside when I hear it. It’s serious business and now I pay close attention to its meaning.
I’m refinancing my mortgage, trying to publish a book, starting a new business, have a relationship I’ve surrendered to God, and I cannot afford to jeopardize any of this with negative or angry or self-depreciating thoughts.
And so, as another day goes by, change your thoughts, change your mind still holds true, and …I have written.
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