After a night on my daughter's couch I found myself awake and ready to go at 5am. Of course, being on a couch, I found myself awake more than once throughout the night and while feeling ready to get up, I was still tired after the wonderful day with my daughter, the food and drink, and seeing Bikram … I was slowly getting up to make tea, thinking about my commute back to the Cape, going to the 4pm yoga class, some cleaning I have to do before guests come tomorrow, the hours I still need to put into my book project and started to feel a little overwhelmed, in addition to being tired. I'm not used to being this tired when I wake up in the morning and I was not liking it.
No one else was up yet, so I made my tea and sat down with my morning meditation. In my morning pages I poured out my whoas to God and asked him to take over my day. Then I opened up a little book that on some days, contains some real gems of wisdom and today was one of those days. It's called "Just For Today" by Tom Walsh. It gives you just one small sentence – one small thing to focus on for the day. Today my little gem was:
"Just for today I will find balance between rest and accomplishment."
Not really much more to be said, is there? As soon as I read it, I relaxed and decided to do just that. I rode the train out of town with my daughter. I treated myself to Dunkin Donuts coffee on the ride home. I arrived home awake and energized more by the the thought that I can give myself permission to accomplish what I can and rest when I need to, rather than by the caffeine.
And so, as another day goes by, so looking forward to time in the hot room, Bikram still makes me scratch my head, but I'm beginning to think that's his point, and ….I have written.
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