What? Live with an unsolved problem? Really Lord? There's peace in that?
That was my reaction to my morning reading this morning. I'm taking a second trip through Melody Beattie's More The Language of Letting Go. This morning that concept was just flung across the page, striking me, and even enraging me a little. Isn't the point of having problems to quietly and consistently work them through and learn from them? I mean, even if it takes years, isn't the point to keep going, not "learn to live with it"? Where is the "learning" in "learning to live with unsolved problems"?
As soon as I uttered those words the learning became apparent. The point of the book is to learn to let go of things we cannot change. It IS okay to stop trying. It is ANOTHER way to solve an unsolved problem. Then there was another sentence in there that caught my attention. Stop trying to control and manipulate the universe into giving you what you want by "using" letting go. Letting go cannot be a means to an end. Letting go is done in the here and now, with no expectations.
This weighs on my heart as I venture off to yoga class this morning. I had trouble on Tuesday. Will I have trouble today? I don't know. If I have a "no expectations" attitude does that guarantee me a good class? That's manipulating the universe to give me what I want. True "no expectations" means I will go willingly, look forward to what unfolds in the class, and accept it for what it is when it's over. That's true letting go.
And so, as another day begins to go by, I'm learning to let go without an ulterior motive, yet again Bikram swoops in to provide practice with life lessons, and….I have written.
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